Well that's a drag about being sick...I hope it is curable, can you still get around and all? There must be something you can do for a job...do you sell chips? I have a friend who was a NYC cop before he hurt his back and now sells comic books and loves it. Just hang in there and keep the faith. As for being the cabbose...that's what I always wanted also....I know a guy from one of my fantasy leagues that works for the B&O and just loves it....in his blood....he's also a railroader and collects the brass trains....man they are beautifull...he has the war era layouts...which looks great but isnt the way I want to go.