John if happy to answer here then please do so but if not, private message please and trust me that ask is amazing for me right now.
This and others that seem familiar (no photo kept) could help clear up an issue in my head (yes, not many left yet).
It relates to my first possible "screwing over" connected to here before anybody knew anything about me at all, at all! Helped shaped the fake narrative about me basically if that makes sense. I won't bang on but I get fixated (no sh** Sherlock) so always nice to change it if possible. Quick one though, 20 years as a croupier/inspector/pit boss/ attempted management forced entry so leave, dealer, ins, all over again. I have won dealing competitions (Grosvenor and UK wide at ICE, screwed up there too by others but another story for the novel). The respect and whatever else has held me in good enough stead to be allowed into Les A soon so it must be good (12 years ago they knew me through my skills as a trainer). All of that behind me and I get treated like scum here (if I'd deserved it, no problem but unjust actions gnaw at me so, last one now I think hence my anger. A deal went wrong years ago and some of these were maybe involved, I could find out for sure by asking source and apologies to that source if this is taken the wrong way (by him or others) but it would really help me out. Last of my "demons" for this weekend. Freaky time.
I'd just like to know where it originated from, person wise and then I'm done at last, finished.
My private sales are off and running tomorrow I hope, at last (I hear 1 person cry) so after that if anybody has regrets of not dealing with me for whatever reason all will given a fair shake although 1 or 2 will be humoured (look I want the u, useless really but principle)and go on the list (near the very bottom). If that sounds a little harsh, yes probably is but it's my game on these so my rules, not many.
I'll even offer a guarantee that as long as looked after if buyer regret I will either take them back or exchange just to offer even more piece of mind. Never know, it may even filter through but no big deal if not, on my own would be easier but want to involve some good people too as they can benefit also. As I say, sorry (last apology hopefully ever) if too passionate/monotonous/boring but I don't need any more stress (trust me, even brought on by myself) so tweaking my new found "skills" and being a bigger man than most I know to change for the better. I could ignore the board easily and still sell the Bond stuff to be honest. Even if wrong and my new found inner confidence is just sleep deprivation then no worries, it was fun. Good and bad payback see?
I can't handle paragraphs and hardly any words in this were thought about, it just rolled out. Yes I know, you can tell haha good one. I know I'm an idiot and more special needs than special but this ramble on (Zep) is for me, now and yes, selfish and uneducated writing but mine all mine. A bit like the LeCercle stuff until I start the ball rolling that's been held back to accommodate some on here that I like and have dealt with before.
Now I personally think that was succinct although long winded, to the point (my point admittedly) but right now I feel I could be a write, film buff, comedian and other stuff, making up for lost time. And as a great man once said, "Thank ur very much" even my Elvis impression is passable now, wow.