Thank you to everyone who has read this post and has added somebody whom you never knew to your thoughts and prayers. When people have asked me about the community of fellow chippers, it's acts like this that I share first.

My "Big Brother" has left a hole in my heart about the size of a 18 wheeler, and it's been so difficult to come to terms with there being a hole there in the first place, how long this void is going to take to heal, and trying not to fill it with booze, drugs or other things that won't change a thing. I feel - I feel - so...so completely destroyed. But to know that you guys all have my back is humbling and very loving.

Thank you all so very, very much.